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THE SOUL'S FEVER.

BY MISS M. C. PECK.

Across the river, now,

My soul look back and see,

How blinded man, thy brother man,
Regarded life and thee.

"He died," they say-no more

"The crisis came and passed;

Death conquered in the fever's strength,
And nature sank at last."

My soul, what sayest thou?

What is this lie of thee?
That hot distemper men call "life,"
Is past, and thou art free.

Thank God! free, free at last,

From folly, woe and pain;
Free from sin's everlasting bond,
The world's depressing chain.
Re-born to healthful life,

The fever crisis past,

Surely, through death's sharp medicine,
Thou art alive at last.

Oh! soul of mine, be still,

Enjoy this endless calm,
These loves that do not curse and kill,
This land of oil and balm.

The broken pitcher lies
Upon the farther shore;

The muddy waters, salt with tears,
Thy hand shall draw no more.

Now, satisfying bread,

Unleavened by earthly sin,

White garments that do not belie
The peaceful soul within.

Hope in possession lost,
Love tender and divine:

Soul, this is what the world calls Death,
Rejoice that it is thine.

splendidly! They must have a carriage and a span of horses, gray horses, she thought the most aristocratic; and she would keep two servants, perhaps three. Then, maybe Mrs. Harcourt might think her good enough to call upon, and her children might be intimate with those of the great lady. This was said in private to herself, for Mr. Smith frowned upon her weakness for Mrs. Harcourt's favor.

Mr. Smith reminded his lady that her fortune was not inexhaustible, and that a new house, and carriage and horses, would make a great diminution of the principle. In homely phrase, he told her they must not cut the garment larger than the cloth.

"I'll take care of that!" cried Mrs. Smith, with a high toss of her head, “I beg you not to dictate too much about the disposal of this property; it is mine, pray understand, and I shall use it, instead of hoarding it up, as perhaps you'd like to have me do.'

Mr. Smith was silent, as he ever was when she put on airs, and renewed his destruction of the edibles with a dawning fear that this new fortune might bring with it new cares and crosses.

The wealth which is mine, not ours, may prove a heavy burden.

It was just the fashionable season for travelling, and Mrs. Smith was resolved to take a journey. She had long wished to spend a season at Saratoga, but Mrs.

MRS. JOHN SMITH AND HER ASPIRATIONS. Harcourt, she had learned, was intending

BY MINNIE 8. DAVIS.

Concluded from last number.

"I declare, it is a lucky windfall!". exclaimed the merchant."Fifty thousand dollars don't grow on every bush. All thanks to your rich, old uncle! It gives a new edge to my appetite, this bit of news," and he commenced his attack on the steak and potatoes, with an energy which verified his words.

They talked over their good fortune, and built castles in Spain, with turrets towering to the skies. They must build a new house, so Mrs. Smith said; a large, fine house, on the same street where Judge Harcourt lived. It must be quite equal to his, and if anything a little better. And it must be furnished, O! so

to go to Newport, so to Newport she would go, and Matilda Eulalia and Orlando Augustus should accompany her there.

Mr. Smith made no objection to this plan; he liked to make his wife and children happy on reasonable terms, so at the first hint, he handed forth a roll of bills for the expenses of preparation. Mrs. Smith's money had not come yet, but she felt as rich and happy as though it was already hers. Her husband went out to his daily business, and she sat down to luxuriate in her imagination, among the splendid and costly personal adornments which she should select for herself and child. She wavered in her mind about the mourning, but concluded at last that

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The next morning she started for the city, with little Tilda, upon her important mission. Mr. Smith was a dry goods merchant, but his wife thought there was nothing in his store fit for her use under these circumstances. By the quantity of fabrics, silks, muslins, laces and ribbons, (to say nothing of gloves, flowers and countless other things) which she brought home, Mr. Smith was half-inclined to think that she was about to set up trade in opposition to him. But they were all for her and Matilda Eulalia, the lady declared, and he needn't laugh nor scold neither. She knew what was proper and could afford it, too!"

So Mr. Smith held his peace, with inward groaning, for he saw in the future a long procession of cold dinners and dry suppers, with loud talking dress-makers and milliners, coming and going, and his wife "tired to death," and cross, and the house in indescribable confusion.

Mrs. John Smith, the merchant's lady, had come into possession of an immense fortune, left by a dearly loved uncle, for whom she dressed in the deepest mourning. This was the story afloat in the village. It came to the ears of our heroine, and she held her head higher still, and talked more than ever of her dear, old uncle, who had willed all his vast property to her.

She received numerous calls from slight acquaintances, who were deeply interested in her good fortune, and congratulated her in honied phrases. But she cared little for the attentions of these persons, and treated all with the most superb condescension One thing was wanting to complete Mrs. Smith's felicity. Mrs. Harcourt did not call, neither Mrs. Johnson, nor Mrs. Arnold. Every night she dreamed of receiving them in great state, every morning she arose with that hope buoying up her heart, and every evening she bitterly reflected upon their neglect.

Through her children and those of Mrs.

Harcourt, she learned the name of the house where that lady intended to sojourn while at Newport. The Harcourts were to meet some relatives there from a Southern State. Mrs. Smith determined to happen there just before the arrival of Judge Harcourt's family, and she trusted to good luck and her own tact to bring about an intimacy. Without doubt Mrs. Harcourt regretted her former coolness, and would be ready to respond to the first demonstration on the part of the wealthy Mrs. Smith.

At last all the magnificent preparations were completed. Three huge trunks were packed to their utmost capacity. There were costumes for breakfast, and dinner, and supper; for walking and riding; for bathing, and negligees for sick days; there were robes for pleasant and stormy days; for picnics and balls and parties of every description. Yet, Mrs. Smith was in mourning, but fashion allows the fashionable mourner to solace herself with a wonderful variety of styles and fabrics.

Matilda Eulalia's wardrobe boasted of every color of the rainbow, and Orlando Augustus rejoiced in half a score of fantastic suits, rich enough for a young prince.

Mr. Smith stayed at home to attend to his business, and his happy spouse hardly regretted that necessity, for she felt that his presence would be a restraint. He had no aspirations, and she began to fear that she had been wedded to an uncongenial companion.

The journey was performed in safety. Strange to say, none of the vulgar travellers with whom they came in contact, seemed to notice them in the least, though so distinguished a looking group. Consequently, Mrs. Smith felt something as might a royal princess travelling in disguise.

She felt some misgivings as she took possession of her fine rooms at the hotel she had selected. What if she had made a blunder, and should miss seeing the Harcourts! The bare supposition made her half ill. But her chambermaid, a gossipping, trim young woman, relieved her heart of its burden. The Harcourts

were expected every day.

The suite of

rooms opposite hers were in reserve for them. And the rooms adjoining were occupied by Col. Ainsworth and lady, and Miss Harcourt, a maiden sister of Judge Harcourt; all very aristocratic people from Mobile. Miss Harcourt was a literary lady, indeed, quite a noted writer, decidedly odd in her ways, as rich and noted people are not unlikely to be.

The next day Mrs. Smith sat in one of the parlors, a little lonely, and her children were lounging listlessly about the piazza, tired and homesick. Miss Harcourt, a lady of forty years of age, plain in her dress, and simple in manners, entered the room. Observing Mrs. Smith, she approached her and introduced herself with graceful ease. Was she willing to waive all ceremony, that they might become friends at once?"

Mrs. Smith thrilled with delight, and replied in most cordial terms. This was more than she had hoped for, still she might have expected it, for the fame of her wealth had doubtless gone before her. Soon the ladies were conversing quite freely.

"Is Mr. Smith with you?" inquired Miss Harcourt; "I should esteem it a privilege to make his acquaintance." 'No; my husband is at home, immersed in the cares of his business."

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Ah! then he cannot stop for a holiday? Now really, I think he ought to give himself some relaxation, with such fame and such a fortune in prospect."

Mrs. Smith bowed with a puzzled air. What meant this reference to fame in connection with fortune? she was about to allude in an affecting manner to her beloved and eccentric uncle, when the enthusiastic blue lady interrupted her.

"I congratulate you upon being his happy wife. I do always dote on men of genius! and all genius does not express itself in poetry; and then there is the poetry of action! inventive genius is admirable. I count poets and novelists and scholars among my friends, but I don't know a single distinguished inventor. I do lament that your husband could not leave his business. Are your children here? I long to see them.'

In a sort of amaze Mrs. Smith beckon

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ed to Matilda, who stood in the doorway. Come here, my darling child," cried the poetess. "I love you, already, for the sake of my brother's children; they always mention Mary Smith in their letters, and my sister-in-law has promised me much pleasure in an acquaintance with her dear friend, Mrs. Smith."

Mrs. Smith was thunderstruck; like a flash of lightning was revealed to her the mistake under which Miss Harcourt was laboring. Her emotions were unutterable.

"Where is your beautiful brother Charlie?"

Matilda laughed gaily in reply. Miss Harcourt looked astonished, and the little maiden explained as well as she could for

mirth.

Miss Harcourt listened in some perplexity, and just as Mrs. Smith, recovering her presence of mind, was about to claim Mrs. Harcourt as a friend; to explain the social position of the other Mrs. John Smith, and to bring up her own dear, rich uncle, she arose with a confused apology.

"Excuse me; I see I have made a mistake. I supposed you were the favorite friend of my sister, Mrs. Harcourt. Please forget my freedom," and with a somewhat s ately bow, she turned away.

Mrs. Smith through the windows, saw Miss Harcourt walking on the piazza with Mrs. Col. Ainsworth, and knew that she was relating her adventure. Swelling with rage and mortification, our heroine hastened to her own apartment. As she passed through the hall, she heard the merry laugh of Mrs. Ainsworth, and the latter part of a remark — " To think you should take that vain woman for our Mrs. Smith, and that horridly over-dressed little girl for her beautiful Mary!"

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This was the one drop too much. Mrs. Smith had barely strength to reach her room, when she gave vent to her feelings in her usual stormy manner. day she was really ill from the effect of violent weeping, but towards night she recovered sufficiently to converse with her knowing chambermaid.

Judge Harcourt and family had arrived

in company with a great inventor and his wife and two children. Everybody wanted to see Mr. Smith and praise him for

his wonderful invention.

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Do you know anything about this Mr. Smith?" faintly inquired the suffering lady.

"O, yes," replied Betsey, with confidence 66 e; Mrs. Harcourt's girl tells me everything she knows. Mrs. Smith is a great friend of Mrs. Harcourt's; I believe they used to know one another when they were children. She is a perfect lady, so they say, and her children are prettier, even, than the Judges'."

"But what about the invention?" "I don't know what it is exactly, nor what it is for; but Mr. Smith has got up some wonderful machine, for something or other, and everybody is praising him and telling what a genius he is. He'll be vastly rich, too, for I heard them say that he had already refused one hundred thousand for the patent right.'

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"Oh-oh-oh!"—groaned Mrs. Smith, writhing on her pillow.

"Dear me," cried Betsey, "your head grows worse every minute! you'll have to take some morphine."

"Yes, these nervous headaches are dreadful! oh-oh! I shall be better alone -hand me that camphor-bottle before you go out."

As Betsey closed the door, Mrs. Smith almost went into convulsions. The pain in her head was agonizing, but the storm of envy and disappointment was harder still to bear.

That Mrs Smith haunted her everywhere; she stepped in before her, and won every prize from her. And now she was rich and her husband famous! Her own fortune, immense in her fancy, before, dwindled to a paltry thing.

For two days she kept her room, then she made a most careful toilet and ventured below. She seated herself in an obscure corner to take observation. There was an animated group upon the opposite side of the room. Her own children were there, with those of the other Mrs. John Smith and the little Harcourts. They were seated around a table examining books of engravings. Little Mary's sim

ple attire contrasted favorably with Matilda's elaborate toilet, and Charlie was dressed comfortably as well as prettily..

Upon a sofa near by sat Mrs. Harcourt, Mrs. Ainsworth, and her unconscious hated rival. Never had Mrs Smith seen her neighbor looking so well. She was dressed in exquisite taste; even the envious critic in the corner was oblig ed to confess it to herself, and her fine features were lit up with a beautiful glow.

At that moment, Mr. John Smith, the inventor, sauntered into the room with Miss Harcourt on his arm. The lady who had a passion for celebrities, and doted on men of genius, was talking in a very fine strain. The merchant's lady was surprised to see how much like a gentleman looked John Smith, the mechanic. His slight figure was erect and graceful; his face delicate; his full forehead white as snow, and his blue eyes keen and flashing. He listened to Miss Harcourt, and smiled blandly, and now and then spoke a word in a very musical voice.

Miss Harcourt saw our Mrs. Smith in the corner, and bowed distantly with a rising blush. Her motion was observed by the ladies upon the sofa, and each pair of eyes were turned in that direction. A smile hovered over Mrs. Ainsworth's lips, but was suppressed instantly, while the other ladies looked away directly, without the slightest sign of recognition.

The merchant's lady had once given the cut direct to the mechanic's wife, and was not surprised at a similar return. But surely that Mrs. Smith needn't be so uplifted with pride, she cared not for her society: and as for Mrs. Harcourt she gave her up entirely; such a complete aristocrat could never be her friend.

She immediately took refuge in her self-sufficient pride, as weak people are apt to do when their overweening vanity is so deeply wounded. She arose and haughtily beckoned to her children to come away from their little companions. She would suffer no more such mortifications, but would take rooms at another hotel, immediately.

But a letter from home, entreating her immediate return, changed her plans. Wondering at the reason of her husband's

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impatience, she hastened to obey his summons. She found her house minus a servant, and every apartment, from attic to cellar, in deplorable confusion. Mr. Smith was boarding at a small restaurant. He looked troubled and worn, a very unusual thing for him.

After answering a multitude of domes tic inquiries, and telling a doleful story of his experience, he came to the reason of his troubled looks. A confidential clerk had decamped with a large sum of money -more than he could hope to make through the whole year.

Mrs. Smith was sorry, but after all 'twas no serious matter, for he could draw all that he needed from her funds.

Mr. Smith laughed nervously, saying, that her generous permission was but poor comfort.

"What do you mean?"

live longer, only for the sake of her husband and children. She put aside her mourning, ashamed that she had ever worn it. She was ashamed to meet her old acquaintances while they remembered the legacy of her rich, eccentric uncle, and to drown her sorrow, she devoted herself to her domestic affairs with her whole strength. Her husband thought he had never known her to be so gentle and kind, and was happy in his ignorance of the real state of her mind. She considered herself a most unfortunate, broken-spirited woman, while John Smith praised her, and said she bore her trial bravely.

The inventor and his family returned. Mrs. Smith was prepared for renewed struggles in beholding their prosperity. But the Smiths over the way were not aspiring people. They made no material change in their style of living. A mod"Why, Jane, we have been complete-est wing was added to their house, for a ly fooled. That letter announcing your good fortune was a bungling affair. I have inquired into the matter, and the facts of the case are these. Your uncle left a property valued at fifty thousand, all in wild Western lands, and your share is only five thousand. Not very available property, and hardly worth going into such expensive mourning for."

This touch of sarcasm on the part of John Smith, was entirely accidental and unpremeditated. He was quite astonished at himself and fully expected to hear his wife call him a heartless wretch. He saw her look of bewilderment and dismay, and waited with a sort of forced indifference, the usual storm of hysterical tears. But the blow was too sudden and deep for any such effect. "Twas indeed, a bitter, humiliating, crushing disappointment.

"My dear Jane," said her husband, softly, "I am sorry for you!" He sat down by her side, and she laid her head upon his shoulder. He drew her to his breast, and in that moment of acknowledged weakness and humiliation she was dearer to his heart than as the proud mistress of fifty thousand.

Mrs. Smith felt that hope was dead. Her ambition was torn up root and branch, and all her budding aspirations nipped by the cruelest frost. She had no wish to

library, and a piano, just such an one, as
Matilda Eulalia's mother had coveted for
her, was purchased for little Mary.
While Mary learned music, Tilda took
lessons in the kitchen with a happy heart.
She did not lament the piano. Charlie
had a pony, but Orlando trudged to
school without a thought of envy. Char-
lie went to college and graduated a great
scholar, but Orlando, after getting a good,
common school education, took his place
behind his father's counter.
He was a
pleasant, obliging lad, and people said he
would make just such a fine, common
sense man as his father.

As years passed, Mrs. Smith took more kindly to fate, and became almost reconciled to her humble lot. Indeed, her home was so happy, her blessings so numerous, that it was impossible to be wretched, in spite of her blighted aspirations.

Nature is incomplete in its expression without Christianity. The revelations of the material universe melt into shadow, and a nebula of mystery hangs round them all They suggest more than they can answer. Christianity fulfils that "elder Scripture." It is the Apocalypse to its Genesis.- Chapin.

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