And oft since then in camps afar, I saw, in fancy's soothing dream, But sad that fancy now returns, To trace the fond remember'd shore; And ye, whom now in deepest woe Yon dome*, 'neath which in former days. Memorial The Hindoo temple of the idol Bullub, which had been evacuated, and left by the Bramins to the ravages of time and the encroaching river. Mr. Brown had it repaired and fitted up. It was appropriated as his family chapel and study; and sometimes to accommodate parti-cular friends: among whom the Rev. H. Martyn was its inhabitant, for about five months that he was a guest on his arrival. Memorial meet of his bless'd zeal The Indian convert there shall stray, Farewell! whose pleasing manners gave May we the lesson taught receive, In sacred pleasures here to live, With conscience whisp'ring peace—to die. Camp, 1812. G. V. APPENDIX. THE customary silence observed by Mr. Brown respecting himself, may, in great measure, be very justly imputed to that principle of modesty and humility which shone through all his conduct. His reserve only deterred him from bringing forward to notice, particulars of his life, which would have redounded very highly to his honor; but he forbad himself to suppose that the fruit of his experience could be profitable, or interesting to others. For, judging himself by the perfect law, he counted not himself to have made any progress in holiness; and within not many weeks of his latter end, expressed himself as though he had only then made the discovery, that he ought to be wholly devoted to the glory of God. Extracts from his private meditations, expressive of these humble sentiments, written with feeble hand at the near approach of his departure, have already been given to his friends by Dr. Claudius Buchanan; to whom no reader can be referred too often: and what he has published as an appendix to his address delivered before the church-mission society, need not be repeated here. But The But although Mr. Brown was not forward under any circumstances to talk respecting himself, yet did he wish that his friends, and especially his children, should have a clear view of all particulars concerning him. That it was his design to furnish an arranged account of himself, he has left expressed in various memorandums to that effect. motives he assigned for this intention were, "To review and record the goodness of God, and to give information to my children, and supply them with useful counsel, I propose to make a chronological list of principal events; birth and family, school, college, ordination, marriage, passage to India, arrival, history of first years, and make a map of Providence from my youth up. Extracts from private papers. Again, during his last illness, in the meditations above alluded to, he thus repeats his intention: "" My desire is to settle in the best manner I am able, my worldly affairs, and to make a record of past occurrences for the information and comfort of my family, to whom it must be interesting to know some passages of my life." life." 15 April 1812. It was probably with a view to such a purpose, and to assist his recollection, that he preserved some fragments of a journal, began in England about the time that he was expecting to embark for India, and which he continued throughout the voyage, and during the earliest period of his fixing in Bengal. He wrote for his own eye only, and for above the last twenty years of his life never made any reference to it. His active pursuits prevented him from following up the plan, though it was one that in general he approved, and made occasional attempts to resume, as feeling it to be useful for himself. Part of this journal is now presented to the reader; together with a small selection from his other papers: arranged not so much with attention to the nature of the subjects, as with a view to preserve order of dates. It is pre sumed the whole will be found to confirm the statements given in the preceding Memorial Sketches, and form a help for attaining just views of Mr. Brown's character. It is also hoped that these extracts proffer many valuable hints and reflections to serious readers, especially to those who may feel themselves cast into similar situations and trials, for the exercise and perfection of their christian attainments. Extracts |