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revivals of religion. Great is our loss! But Ô Lord Jesus, thou remainest the support, friend, and builder of Zion. Do not leave us, but raise up some Elisha, instead of this departed Elijah; and grant to poor me, aged and weak, thy guidance, grace, and every needed help, that I may be faithful and useful to death, and also be found of thee in peace. Amen."

To his nephew, Mr. W. A. H., at Andover.

"May 2, 1822. "Mother Humphrey fell asleep, as we trust in Jesus, last autumn, in her ninety-ninth year. Indeed, my sun is far in the west, having just closed my sixty-fourth year, and it gives me feelings unutterable. The world all slides from under me, and I see nothing here but vanity. But the divinity and truth of the word of God appear more and more real, and of amazing importance. The testimony of the word, concerning the sinfulness, wretchedness, and weakness of man-concerning the Lord Jesus Christ, as God with us, his atonement, righteousness, intercession, and infinite, unchangeable, and eternal fulness; and respecting the Holy Spirit, to change and sanctify the heart, to show us the things of Jesus, and fill the broken heart with peace and consolation in him ;-these, and the like things, increase in my view all aside from the Gospel is absolute darkness and desperation. But O how needed, and inestima

bly precious is the Gospel of Christ, as the true and only light of life. I think I can say, my study was never so delightful-I would write my sermons, if it were only for the pleasure of writing them, and my desire is to go out of this world, testifying of Jesus to all I leave behind; and that that good promise might be fulfilled also in poor me,-"They shall be fruitful in old age.' Go on, my dear cousin,—the work you have chosen is truly good-the best of all callings and may a double portion of dear brother's piety, love, and faith rest upon you.

"From your affectionate uncle, who loves you."

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May 12, 1822. Last week, I set apart a portion of my garden to the Lord, for missionary purposes, and planted it with corn and potatoes. Should my life and health be continued, and any part of it fail through my carelessness or sloth, then I am to make it up. Whatever it produces, I consider solemnly consecrated to the treasury of the Lord, or the full worth of it in money. O Lord, what are we, that we should be in a situation to give thee thine own! O give me grace to do it from the heart, and may I know how solemn and blessed it is to be the Lord's, and live and do all to him, who hath done and suf fered so much for poor sinful me, and this world of sinners."

CHAPTER XIX.

Conversion of Mr. Hallock's elder son.-Feelings in sickness.-Letter to a son.-Birth-day reflections.-Happy meeting of father and son. -Miscellaneous extracts from his journal.—His appearance at Ministers' Meeting.-His worth in ecclesiastical Councils.-Some traits of general character.

THE parent who has prayed, and wept, and waited long, for the conversion of a beloved child, will take no common interest in the fact now to come before him; a fact, equally suited to make him a partaker of another's joy, and to inspire him with firm confidence in the Hearer of prayer, slow as the gracious answer may seem to come.

"May 19, 1822. Yesterday, I received a letter from my sweet brother, Rev. Mr. Jennings of Steubenville, Ohio, containing in many respects the most reviving intelligence I ever heard, namely, the news of the apparent conversion of my dear son Jeremiah; and of his public profession of the Lord Jesus, the last Sabbath in April. If ever, I now had something of David's feeling, when he went and sat before God and said: 'What can David say more unto thee? for thou, Lord God, knowest thy servant.' He has been a child of my daily prayers—I have often thought of those words, where the Psalmist speaks of praying until his throat was dried, and of looking until his eyes failed. I could hardly believe for joy. And how reviving was the news to his dear mother! Whether I think of my unwor

thiness, or of the Lord's being a prayer-hearing God of the love and preciousness of Christ-of the emptiness of this world-the need we stand in of Jesus, and the blessedness of faith in him, or of the free grace of God in bestowing it ;-all I can say is; turn which way I will, the scene is rather overwhelming, and the thought arises, what shall I render unto the Lord? It is all the travail of Jesus' soul, and let him have all the praise, to the glory of God the Father. I think I have rejoiced with many parents, in seeing or hearing of the apparent conversion of their children; and now I want to call on them to rejoice with me and help me praise the Lord. And I would wish to do it with trembling and holy fear. Dear Savior, I give him afresh to thee. Do not let him be deceived. O take the full possession of his heart, and make him wholly and forever thine. O be his guide and support in this evil world, and make him useful in thy church, on the earth, in the way in which it shall seem good to thee. O, not only come into my poor unworthy family, but go through. O take Sarah his wife; Homan and Clarissa; J— and L; the grandchildren, Jeremiah, Oliver, Harvey; and the youth

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and children with me, A and E-, SAre not thy arm and grace sufficient, and the atonement and fulness of Jesus infinite? Cause my soul to be humble deep within me-to thank thee, to take fresh courage, to believe more and serve thee better, as a minister of the Gospel, as a parent every where and in all things, unto thy coming and glorious kingdom, with which

this world and all its good things are not worthy to be so much as named. Blessed be the Lord God, the God of Israel, who only doeth wondrous things. And blessed be his glorious name forever: and let the whole earth be filled with his glory. Amen and Amen.'

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"J. HALLOCK."

"July 9, 1822. I had a sick day-some of the time partially deranged. When the hour of the concert came, it affected me to see the dear friends of Jesus meet, and I could not go with them. And thinking this might be my last sickness, it excited thoughts like these: Farewell pleasant conferences and sweet concerts of prayer-may you ever be honored and blessed with the presence of the God of Jacob. And if I must die, O may the ever living and most exalted Jesus come down, and fill all his meetings with his refreshed, joyful saints, and quickened sinners.' For some reason, I felt rather calm in mind, and not anxious whether I went now, or came back to life. That which my poor family and the dear church need, is not me, a feeble creature, but the all-refreshing presence of our exalted Lord and Savior Jesus.

"July 10. Through mercy, rested last night better than I feared, and things respecting my recovery look more encouraging. O Lord, fit me, and my dear family and people for thy most holy and blessed will. Only grant this one blessing, that we might live altogether in, and unto our ever living and exalted Redeemer, as our blessed all in all. O, in

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