-thought every body exceeded me, and felt great want of a Christian spirit.

"To-day, I am thirty-five years old; feel as if I never had done any thing, and never should, as a minister or Christian. O may I be humbled for my unprofitableness, and apply my heart unto wisdom. Think it has of late been some comfort to me, that all should be done in the name of Christ. Sometimes have very trying temptations; O thou, that didst deliver David's soul out of all distress, wilt thou save me in the hour of temptation."

Throughout his journal, Mr. Hallock mourns, often, and very bitterly, over his imperfectly sanctified heart. The temperament of his mind, especially in connexion with nervous debility, seems to have led him to prefer dwelling more on the dark, than on the lighter shades of his own moral features. Yet we are, no doubt, to ascribe these lamentations in great part to his deep knowledge of himself, and of God, added to the high standard of spiritual attainment at which he aimed. His sense of entire dependence on God, in the Christian course, he himself very happily illustrates, in the following terms: "The way to heaven is up stream. It is like one ascending out of Ontario into Erie, and the higher lakes. But how will the inexperienced youth, in his little open boat, meet the tempest and billows! How, with nought but his hands and paddle, will he ascend the falls of Niagara!"

Somewhat similar imagery, Mr. Hallock employed, at times, in reference to the conversion of sinners. He was once in a neighboring town, where there

was a powerful work of divine grace. In going thither, he had travelled by the side of a river, covered with floating cakes of ice. Surrounded as he was with proofs of the mighty power of God in the repentance of stout-hearted sinners, he said with his accustomed originality and force, that the scene before him was not less wonderful than would be the sight, if the cakes of ice which he had just seen borne down on the strong current, should at once stop, and turn, and, contrary to nature, float up the stream. This anecdote is not more an illustration of Mr. Hallock's views in respect to the sinner's entire dependence on God for saving grace, than an example of his common practice in the application of surrounding circumstances to some useful end. Yet, with these views of man's dependence, he was eareful not to excuse any form of sin. No one could be farther from antinomianism. If he could not fully explain the harmonious connexion of divine agency and grace with human freedom and accountability, he firmly believed in its existence on the testimony of Jehovah. In a circle of ministers, where the nature of the sinner's inability was the topic of discussion, instead of his exact views, he stated the following fact: "A man in my parish, who is no sailor, lately made an attempt to cross a mill-pond, in a small boat. The water was high, and to his dismay he found himself gradually carried down toward the dam. In this extremity, not knowing how to manage the boat, he called to some persons on the shore. They cried out: 'Row on the other side.' All agitation, he replied: "I

can't.' They cried more earnestly: Row on the other side.' He still said, tremblingly: 'I can't." They added: Well, then, go over the dam.""

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May 20, 1793. Have had some refreshment in preaching, but for the most part have been very gloomy, and never saw my heart more wicked-never was pressed with greater temptations-many times, seemed to be destitute of faith-could get no comfort from the Bible, or in prayer, and the world seemed altogether vanity. O dreadful scenes, which none but they that feel can know! But glory be to the God of all comfort, before I got home, last evening, felt revived. Found brother Miller at my house-we opened our minds to each other-went out and prayed together; and I trust my soul was truly refreshed. O may we never forsake the Lord.

"May 30. Last Tuesday, had a public meeting on account of the drought; though the good Lord sent rain before the day came. Mr. Miller preached two sermons, and appeared to enjoy extraordinary assistance. My heart, I trust, was in some measure refreshed. Spent the evening with brother Miller, and rode home with him on Wednesday. It was my lot to preach at West-Britain, though I felt as if I could not; for it has seemed, at times of late, as if I could not pray, and as if my poor attempts were shut out. Indeed, many times, it has seemed almost as if the pains of hell had got hold upon me;' but, in prayer and in preaching, yesterday, the clouds seemed to disperse, and I had unusual freedom and satisfaction. The audience were very attentive, and after meeting I enjoyed a sweet even

ing. This morning, felt as if I could spend the day and the night, in numbering over the richest joys. My mind is calm and serene, and it almost seems, that I should be glad to leave this world, and be with Jesus. May God have all the praise of this deliverance; may this mercy learn me, forever, in trouble and at all times, to trust, and cry unto him. And if these lines should ever be read by any one, may he or she be encouraged to pray without ceasing to God in trouble, and not faint; knowing that God will appear for the distressed, if they pray to, and trust in him.

“March 1, 1795. To-day, heard of the death of my sister Abigail. Her natural temper was very agreeable, and sweetened, I trust, with true grace. She was the desire and crown of her husband, the nourisher of her little babe, the delight of her parents, the glory of her brothers and sisters;-kind to all, beloved by her neighbors, and esteemed in Zion. But her work is done. God hath called her away, we trust, to himself; and blessed be his name. May her bereaved consort, parents, and all of us, find this loss made up in God; and be prepared to go when our turn shall come.

"June 7. Yesterday, my dear father came to see me from Goshen; gave me a more particular account of my beloved sister's death, and brought some of her private diary, which I think is expressive of true religion. O may God have all the praise."

In addition to Mr. Hallock's other trials, was an attempt to divide his already feeble parish. The kind

interposition of God, in the day of peril, he acknow~ ledges in a truly Christian manner.

"May 29, 1796. The past week, God hath interposed for us, in defeating some who were for dividing the parish, by disposing the General Assembly to decide in our favor. O may we make a right improvement of this kind providence, be humble, and learn ever to trust in God. And may those, who have wished for the division, be guided in the path of truth. Praised be the Lord.

"June 5. Had rather more freedom than common in private duties, last evening; and was favored in preaching, this morning, beyond my expectation. But, in a sermon to the youth, this afternoon, have been dreadfully unfruitful, and had but little attention. Feel so ashamed and confounded, I hardly know what to do with myself. O that I might feel like a child under the parent's rod, and that God would have mercy on the youth.

"Sept. 18, 1796, Lord's day. I am troubled with a dull, inconstant mind, and a treacherous memory, so that I find it difficult to compose, to speak, or pray. Whence it ariseth, I cannot tell; whether from disease of body or want of grace. But, let it be from what it may, I have no way but to go to the Lord and wait for his salvation. The meeting, today, has been thin and dull; I have had but very little sense of things, either in preaching or praying. Yet, I must not forget the unusual comfort, the Lord was pleased to grant me, this morning, especially in family religion. But, my Beloved is withdrawn, as