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the house, by a gentleman of noble appearance. pillows; but after three long weeks she grew a While I was yet describing them to my mother, little stronger, and was able to be moved to the the landlord came over, in great haste, saying easy chair; and finally her husband ventured to that the lady was very ill, and the gentleman, carry her into the parlor, where she reclined upColonel Ellerie, wishing to find a quiet place to on the sofa, and enjoyed the change of place. which she might be immediately removed from How happy we were to see her there! how ea. the confusion of a tavern, and having noticed gerly we sought to beguile her weariness! how our cottage, and made some inquiries concern- earnestly we desired that she might be restored ing its inmates, had sent him to beg that we to health! She was but three or four years older would try to accommodate them, and though than myself, and at least ten younger than her money might not purchase such a favor, he husband. I had never before known one should not ask it without giving the assurance lovely both in person and disposition. She was of an ample recompense. My mother objected fair as a lily; her eyes were blue as heaven, and at first, she did not like to put herself to such as serene and holy in expression, and her beauinconvenience and trouble for total strangers ;

tiful brown hair was parted over her seraph but when the landlord described their appear.

brow, in softest satin folds. Beautiful to witance, showing that he believed them to be above ness was the husband's devotion; no mother the common class, and I added a few words in could have watched over her child more tender. favor of the plan, she consented to receive them. ly. She was like an infant in his arms, and

The parlor bed-room was opened to see that would sit with her head resting upon his bosom, all was in order ; something additional was be- while he would chat cheerfully with her, or read spoken for the dinner table, we looked in the the poems of favorite authors, for she loved poglass to smoothe down our hair, and were ready etry like a child of the Muse. She was passionfor our stranger guests. They came in a few ately fond of music, and I had never prized my moments, the Colonel bearing the lady in his piano, my voice, and my talent in using them, arms, and followed by a waiting maid with a few as now when they could minister to her pleas. necessary articles, for the bulk of their baggage I was constantly by her side; I could not was to remain at the tavern, as our small rooins bear to leave her even at night; I had never loved could not well afford space for it. The invalid any one so well beside my mother, and she saw was laid directly upon the bed, and though she and appreciated my affection. She would call could not speak, a sweet smile showed that she me her "little sister,” for I was rather diminuwas pleased, and grateful for our kindness, and tive in person, and her “good genius," because her husband pressed my mother's hand, and if I possibly could I would get the start of her spake gently to me, and before they had been husband in anticipating her wishes. with us a half hour, I was warmly in love with So the time passed away, weeks, and months, the lady, and the gentleman's fast friend for life. and she was growing weaker day by day; noShe was so very beautiful! so angelic, I may thing could save her. She had come to us early say, in appearance; and he was so tender in June, and on the last day of August we buried in his care for her, showing in every look and her with the fading flowers ; she who was so act the most devoted affection.

lovely, and so beloved ! They were English people, travelling for pleas- It was long ere the bereaved husband could

Though constitutionally frail, she had resign himself to his loss, or leave the place never before been alarmingly ill; but a few where they had passed the last days of her life miles from the village she was suddenly attack- together. He clung to my mother and myself, ed with hemorrhage from the lungs, which, as to friends who had shared his anxieties, had though not violent, had left her in this very contributed to the comfort and happiness of the weak and dangerous condition. Our physician, invalid, and become intimately associated with a wise and worthy man, looked grave when my the memory of the departed. His great grief, mother questioned him concerning his patient, and our deep sympathy, drew us very near toand though he did not then say there was no gether. I was like a young sister to him; he hope, a few days after he told her it was not seemed to consider me as still a girl, though I probable that she would ever leave the house was a woman in feeling and in years. He would again.

sometimes throw his arm around my neck, and Days passed, and there was little amendment. weep upon my shoulder; or when walking the She could only sit up in the bed, supported with floor, in agony of spirit, would draw me to him,

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and lean upon me, as if to find comfort and sup- I highly valued, there were none who could win port in nearness to one who had loved his lost idol; and many times did he take me with him We never heard from our absent friend; we to visit her grave. For me it was a dangerous did not know but grief had killed him ; and five companionship; to be so constantly with one years rolled on, leaving us still undisturbed by whose unaffected sorrow awoke that soft pity any great trial or change in our quiet existence; which is so near to love, and which, added to but now a day came, an ever memorable day, the consciousness that be found his greatest so- which brought us again together. The stage lace in my society, could not but lead me to re- stopped as usual, and a gentleman, with a gard him with the most tender interest. I was bronzed face, alighting, came directly to our not then aware of the danger in which I stood. door. I was at the window. I saw the stately I had no thought for myself; my whole interest form, the well remembered face, the hazle eyes in life seemed centred in him ; my heart yearn- into which I had never hoped to gaze ed so passionately to bless and comfort him, like was Colonel Ellerie. O, joy too great to be a mother's over a grieved and suffering child. calmly borne! I hastened eagerly forth to meet

Finally he left us, late in Autumn, when the him, and in a moment was folded in his arms, skies were gray, and the leaves were fallen, and and felt again his kisses upon cheek and brow. every thing in nature was dark and sad like my I led him into the little parlor, and when after heart. He would soon embark for England; casting a glance around upon familiar objects, would return to the army, and it was not likely he threw himself into his old seat upon the sofa, that we should ever meet again. When he

and buried his face in his hands, overcome with wrung my mother's hand, and kissed me upon melancholy recollections, 1 sat down beside him my cheek and forehead, at parting, he had spo

and soothed him as of old. ken of the possibility of returning; but it was a

My mother was not so quick to recognize mere possibility, it was not any thing that we him; he had left us thin and pale, but now he could confidently expect or hope. My mother had more flesh upon him, and was wonderfully indulged me in many tears, in much sadness; brown. He had been in India, in active service, she made allowance for the position in which I

and for that reason we had not heard from him; had been placed, and for the tenderness of my

but as soon as his regiment was ordered home, nature; but when weeks wore away, and he had felt a strong desire to revisit our village, there was no return of cheerfulness, she won. and the grave of his adored wife, and the friends dered at my sorrow. She did not know that it he had never forgotten; and so he had come to was the great joy and grief of my life; joy that stay with us a few days, or perhaps weeks, if I had been for a little time, so near the heart of we would not send him away. Oh how happy one so noble; grief that I could not make his I was ! even now my heart bounds at the recolhappiness, could never be any thing more to him

lection of a joy so great, so unexpected! than the gentle girl who had pitied him in his The days flew by too quickly that gave us weakness, and with girlish sympathy mingled

such a guest. No one could be a more delighther tears with his. How much I suffered in ful companion. He had an inexhaustible store feeling that we were forever separated, not more

of anecdotes and adventures to relate of the years by distance than by his own will, no words of passed in India, and like Desdemona I was a mine can tell. The last six months of my life loving listener to the recital of his perils and were like a sad, sweet dream, which it were toils. A fortnight passed away, and I had been better to forget on awaking, but which never

the companion of his walks and rides, the decould be forgotten. I learned in time to appear lighted auditor of his fascinating conversation ; like myself again. I did not weep, except when in fact, I was constantly by his side ; but one no one saw me; I was cheerful, dutiful; I held morning, while we were gathering roses upon my place in society, and no one supposed, not the verandah, our village lawyer, who had lateeven my mother, that my heart had gone through ly set up an equipage, with a pair of mettlesome such a serious trial. Time gave me opportuni- horses, drew up at the gate, inviting him to ride. ties to test the fidelity of a feeling so strangely He looked wistfully back at me as he passed out awakened. I could not endure to be seriously the gate, as if he did not like to leave me. I was addressed by any one, and though among the

uneasy during his absence; I could not bear to other sex there were some few whose friendship

have the precious hours of his visit devoted to another. The morning wore away, and I grew

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impatient for his return. At last I heard voices mine, pressed them to my heart, and bending in the street, and saw several men slowly ap- down, sealed my promise with a kiss upon his proaching. They drew near the house. They wan lips. It was a sad betrothal. He tried to , were bearing some one in their arms. Oh, my smile and express his satisfaction, but he was God! It was our beloved friend; not dead, but evidently suffering intensely, and it was unwise with a broken limb. The horses had become to prolong our conversation. He had refused to unmanageable, had dashed the carriage to pie- have his limb examined till after our interview, ces, and both its occupants were frightfully in- and now he said I had inspired him with courjured. i comprehended it all, when I saw the age to go through what was before him, and be sad procession enter the gate. I opened the must send me away, and have the surgeon to door and window of his room, and stood there take my place. I offered to remain with him, silent as a statue, and as cold and pale, when and do my best to support him through the trial, they brought him in, and laid him upon the bed. but though he expressed a soldier's admiration I did not faint, but a cold, dark mist seemed to of my firmness, he would not consent to have it envelope me, through which I saw the black fu

put to such a test; neither would my mother, ture; and every nerve of my frame trembled

who was present, and who now led me from the and shrunk in my terrible agony.

room where so much was still to be suffered. He saw me where I stood, pale as death, but It was found necessary to amputate the crush. tearless and firm. There was love and pity in ed limh, above the knee. It was the only chance his glance when our eyes met, and when I went for life, and he might not live, even if he surto the bed and arranged the curtains, to give rived the operation. I was not apprized of the more air, and brought a powerful perfume, and decision till all was over; for he had desired that bathed his brow, he smiled faintly upon me, but

quick work might be made of it; and when I did not speak. Then the physician came, and

was again admitted into the room, after hours my mother led me from the room. I determin

had passed, which seemed like ages, he was on. ed not to give way to any weakness which would der the influence of a powerful opiate, and lay unfit me to be with him. I prayed for strength, in a deep sleep, like death. and eagerly swallowed the cordial which my I was warned by the kind physician to prepare mother offered to my lips. The interview with

my mind for the worst, and I tried to compass the physician was brief, and the patient request

the idea, that now when he was so near me, I ed that I might be called to his side. I bent

was about to lose him forever. For the three over him, and gazed upon his pale and suffering days that he was spared to me, I would not leave face in speechless anguish. “Clara,” said he,

him for a moment, except when sent away by when I was in India I often thought of you,

the physician, and much of solace and encour and whenever I felt lonely and sad, I wished my little friend was near to comfort me.

agement did we impart to each other in the When

midst of our suffering. What he suffered I could our campaign was over, and I returned to England and was at liberty to wander whitherso

not know, for he suppressed all outward show

of it, with a soldier's firmness. Only the pallor ever I would, I felt irresistibly drawn towards

of his face betrayed it. Several hours before you. I found you unchanged, and lately I have

the last change, he was relieved from pain, and said to myself, .perhaps the dear child would take pity on me, and go with me, to be the com

spoke calmly of his approaching departure. I

raised his head from the pillow, and rested it fort and happiness of my life;' but now you see how it is; I have passed unscathed through the

upon my bosom; and thus he died, with my

arms around him, and my love clinging close to perils of war, to be hopelessly maimed in this

the last. I was chief mourner at the grave. My peaceful village. My limb is frightfully shat

mind could never recover its natural tone of tered, amputation may be necessary,

and now

cheerfulness, could never be divorced from its you cannot love me, for if my life is spared, I

absorbing sorrow, and I shall be the chief of shall be a crippled, useless man!"

mourners to the end of my days. “ Not love you !" 1 exclaimed, with energy, Hartford, Conn. I have loved

you many years; so fondly as now, when you most need my love; and here on my knees, I call Heaven to witness that next to my God, I devote myself entirely to

Good deeds, performed by the promptings of you !" I rose up, and clasping both his hands in glittering in the sun.

a noble mind, are like the morning dew-drops

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nor forsake him; hence his soul becomes resign[This communication comes to us from a new and welcome correspondent who has been con

ed and thankful, and is placed in the best condifined by sickness to her bed for nearly five years,

tion for procuring at once the mitigation of his and during that time has endured dreadful suffer- sorrow, and of profiting by the affliction which ings. Coming from one thus circumstanced, it is

has occasioned it. more than a common word for prayer, and is in itself rich with good thought and right feeling.

I do not wonder, therefore, that David should We shall welcome future favors from the same say, “It is good for me to draw nigh unto God.” ED.]

Nothing have we so much to dread as the relinPRAYER IS THE SOLACE OF AFFLICTION.

quishment of prayer. To give up prayer is to

give up all help, all hope ;-it is to defeat the "In the day of my trouble I will call upon thee.”

design of providential chastisement; for if men

will not pray when affliction overwhelms them, THERE is some relief even in tears. We have

what else can prove efficacious ? for prayer is been told of the luxury of weeping. So long as the medium of our relief in trouble. For this the feelings of a sufferer are restrained and shut

relief we are allowed to be concerned; but we up within his own bosom, they prey upon his

must seek it from God. And in doing this we internal peace. While David kept silence, his

have not only his power to encourage us, but bones waxed old; but when the feelings obtain

also his mercy and love. Yea more, we have a channel through which they find utterance and

his faithfulness and truth, that we shall not seek expansion, the heart is relieved, at least of part him in vain. He hath engaged to deliver us. of its burden. It eases and soothes the aching

He hath bound himself, and put the bond into heart to pour our grief into the ear of a friend

our hand, and we can produce it, and plead it, who truly sympathizes with us, and who, rejoic- and be surer of its ful6llment than we are of the ing when we rejoice, will also weep when we

continuance of heaven and earth, " for heaven weep. But O, to turn aside as Job did, and say,

and earth shall pass away, but His word shall "Mine eye poureth out tears unto God !"--to

not pass away." Here it is: “The Lord is tell Him all that distresses, and all that afflicts nigh unto all them that call upon him, to all us, with a confidence in his compassion, and that call upon him in truth.”—“Call upon me sympathy, and power, and wisdom, like the child

in the day of trouble; I will deliver thee, and wbich sobs itself to sleep in its mother's arms, thou shalt glorify me."-" The eyes of the Lord and on its mother's bosom ; here is an asylum

are upon the righteous, and his ears are open from which no enemy can cut us off; here is a

unto their prayers.”—“Ask and it shall be givsanctuary where no evil can enter; here is a

en you; seek, and ye shall find ; knock, and it cabin in the midst of the wildest storms; here is shall be opened unto you."_“If ye, being evil, a joy in the midst of the deepest tribulations. know how to give good gifts unto your children,

It is said that travelers in Alpine regions, as how much more shall your Father, who is in they ascend toward the summit of those lofty

heaven, give good things to them that ask mountains, often enjoy a clear atmosphere and him!” an unclouded sun, while the world below them And how abundantly has God verified his is involved in mists and darkness, and the tem

promises in the experience of his people in all pest is raging beneath their feet. Thus prayer ages! The sacred writings are full of examples elevates the Christian above the clouds and

of the efficacy of prayer, and especially of the storms that darken and distract the world below.

certain relief it secures in the time of affliction. By communion with God he gains a region of Jacob, when alarmed at the approach of his peace and tranquility, where the sunshine of brother Esau, and expecting to be destroyed toGod's favor beams upon his soul, while he sees

gether with his family, prayed to God, and prethe thunder clouds of earthly care and sorrow vailed, and Esau became his friend. When Isrolling beneath his feet. By prayer the mind is

rael was oppressed with the Philistines, Samuel brought into immediate contact with the Su

prayed, and the invaders were scattered and preme will; the sovereignty of God is felt and fled. When Hezekiah was nigh unto death, he acknowledged; the wisdom of his dispensations prayed, and fifteen years were added to his life. is recognized, and the faithfulness and love of Daniel and his companions, when threatened God become objects of joyous contemplation and with destruction, because unable to tell the prodelightful hope. The believer feels that in God phetic dream of Nebuchadnezzar, prayed, and he has a friend-a friend who will never leave

the dream and the interpretation were made

at vantage from it

, our prayer is answered, and

pray for it."

known to them. Jonah, amid the swellings of bear it patiently. If, therefore, the answers the deep, prayed, and obtained deliverance. Pe- which God sends to our prayers do not always ter was thrown into prison by Herod; the church correspond with our requests, the change is al. of God prayed without ceasing for his deliver- ways for our benefit. If, for instance, when we ance, and their prayer was more powerful than implore deliverance from trouble, he gives us chains, and bolts, and prison doors, and armed patience under it, and enables us to derive ad. guards. Paul and Silas were imprisoned at Phillippi,-thrown into the inner dungeon: they God's veracity is free from stain. If we solicit prayed, and an earthquake shook the prison to consolation, and he prepares us for it by increasits foundation, and all its doors were opened, and ed humiliation, our request is granted, and every one's bonds were loosed.

Such are some

granted in a way that is more conducive to our of the memorable instances recorded in the sa- benefit, than if the blessing which we Qesired of cred volume of the success of prayer in times of Him had been immediately bestowed. Hence trouble. While viewing them, who may not the prayer which Socrates taught his pupil is see that “prayer moves the hand that moves the not unworthy to be used by a Christian : “That world.” Whatever evil, therefore, it is that op- he should beseech the Supreme Being to give presses our souls, we can pour oui our hearts him what was good for him, though he should into the ear of the “ Father of mercies,” the God not ask it; and to withhold from him whatever of all comfort, and be sure it cannot be in vain. was injurious, if by his folly he should be led to It can deliver from danger-procure blessings;

S. W. E. it can obtain pardon for sin-furnish strength against temptation, mitigate the extremity of suffering, sustain our infirmities, remove dejection, increase our graces, abate our fears, sweet

A FORTUNATE KISS. en the bitterness of affliction, and open the windows of heaven! Let us pray, therefore, and be The following little story by Miss BREMER is happy.

furnished to Sartain's Magazine. For its truth When we pray, either that some temporal ca- and reality she says she will be responsible : lamity may be removed, or some temporal bles. “In the University of Upsala, in Sweden, sing be bestowed, we are always to keep a re- lived a young student, a lonely youth, with a serve upon our wishes, including submission to

great love for studies, but without means for the will of God; for we are so ignorant of what pursuing them. He was poor, and without conis really good for us, that we may be more in- nections. Still he studied, living in great porjured by the gratification of our desires than by erty, but keeping a cheerful heart, and trying the refusal of them. There can be no doubt not to look at the future, which looked so grimthat were every desire we express in prayer to ly at him. His good humor and good qualities meet with a direct and literal fulfillment, the made him beloved by his young comrades. Once efficacy of prayer, through our ignorance of what he was standing with some of them in the great is really good for us, would become a sower of square of Upsala, prating away an hour of leiscalamity rather than a comfort. “ Who know- ure, when the attention of the young men beeth what is good for man in this life, all the days came arrested by a very young and elegant lady, of his vain life which he spendeth as a shadow who, at the side of an elderly one, walked slowWhy, God, and he only. If, however, God de- | ly over the place. It was the daughter of the nies our request, because in ignorance we ask a Governor of Upland, living in the city, and the stone in the place of bread, or a scorpion when lady with her was her governess. She was genwe should ask for fish, He never fails to give us erally known for her beauty and for her good. something in the place of what he denies, which ness and gentleness of character, and was lookis more than an equivalent. While God engages ed upon with great adroiration by the students. to answer prayer, he reserves to himself the right As the young men now stood silently gazing at of answering it in his own way; but in doing so her, as she passed on like a graceful vision, one He is influenced not by caprice, but by a regard of them exclaimed : to our welfare. Thus the thrice-repeated request 'Well, it would be worth something to have of his servant Paul, was granted. He asked for a kiss from such a mouth!' deliverance from the thorn in the flesh; but in. The poor young student, the hero of our story, stead of removing it, God gave him grace to who was looking intently on that pure and an.

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