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day to Sabbath; and with the kind and affectionate help of Br. David Young, we baptized, according to the best of my memory, about thirty; and admitted on probation about fifty. It was a time of great joy in that place. I returned a few miles and preached on Sabbath evening, and the good Lord gave me great peace in my soul, all was tranquil. I felt that God was all in all, while I looked not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen, which are eternal.

"Friends, believe me when I tell,
When Christ is with me all is well."

I arrived home on Monday about 9 o'clock, A. M., and as I opened the door, my wife, bolstered up in the bed, opened her eyes, and the first words were, "How do the tender Lambs of the flock prosper? Are the young converts strong in faith, praising the Lord?" I answered, yes, the God of Jacob has been with us-we have had a happy season." Glory to God! he has been with me also. I have not been so free from pain, nor rested so well for many days before, as I have these few days that you have been gone to work for the Lord."

We united to give thanks to God for granting us one privilege more of meeting on the shores of time, and the joy we have in hearing that sinners are repenting and turning to God.

I inquired of the children, how they felt to be left without regular family worship? (not thinking it possible for their mother to perform the duty.) They looked upon each other, and then upon their mother in silence. She answered, "We have devotion," and proceeded to give me the history, as she was

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able, to which I listened with deep interest.has been my esteem for family worship, that in your absence, I have endeavored always to maintain it according to the best of my ability, and sometimes under the embarrassment of sitting in my chair, or lying on my bed through bodily weakness. But now my lungs and voice are so affected, that nature forbids my performing that duty in vocal strains as in days that are past, and what shall be done? As I lay thus musing, and reflecting on my case, just about to bid farewell to the world, my children about to be left, and if their father continues faithful, ranging the wide world in quest of souls, our family altar would be thrown down, and the children gather round a stranger's altar, or perhaps have their lot cast where no vocal prayer is heard. The emotions of my mind cannot easily be described, until the hands of Israel stretched and laid on the heads of Joseph's children, passed through my mind. At the proper time, I called on the children to take their Bibles for family worship. After reading their chapter, I caused them to come near and kneel down by my bedside, and in the name of the God of Israel I reached out my hand and laid it on their heads, believing that God, who seeth in secret, can bless, without words as well as with; and truly they may be reckoned amongst some of the most refreshing seasons that I ever enjoyed with my little family; and I humbly hope, that our children will be numbered with the tribes of Israel, and have a lot of inheritance with the people of God. And as Israel gathered up his feet upon his bed and died, leaving his blessing upon his offspring, so even I was willing to die and leave my husband and children in the care of that God who has protected me

as he did Lerael, all my lifetime and brought me to hope in the resurrection!

"Such was the enlargement of my mind on the care of a kind Providence over the righteous, and the showers of grace that descended like the dew of Heaven upon us, that we wept, and my tears were tears of joy, more than grief."

Reader, fix your mind on a mother with her children, thus presenting themselves before God; view the falling tears, hear the sobbing children, listen to the low voice of the pale parent, ready to depart, now and then softly whispering, "Lord bless. my son-my daughter-I leave them with thee-they are thine-take them-keep them-from the evilsthat are in the world-for Jesus' sake-make them useful-support us in-death-bring us to meetin-Heaven-glory-to God-amen-glory-glory-glory-praise--God-amen— amen-.

See the smiles that speak a composure and tranquillity that a full view of parting with parents, husband, and children, and sinking into the cold bosom of death cannot obliterate, and then can you say, in candor, There is nothing in religion? The man of God can say, "To live is Christ, to die is gain!" Let all the people know, that the "Sting of death is SIN, but thanks be to God who giveth us the victory through (faith in) Jesus Christ our Lord!" I often saw the day star rise, and the day breaking, while sitting by the side of my dear wife. In the language of inspiration, "The morning cometh and also the night." "He turneth the shadow of death into the morning of life."—I had such views of the resurrection of the dead, and the glory that shall follow, that death appeared like a friend with a life-boat to take us off of the wreck of this poor world, and

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land us safe upon the fair shores of eternal blessedThe narrow gulf of death and the gloomy grave, were so lost in the unbounded joy which began to heave in view, and the earnest of the inheritance which the Lord gave us, that we could say,

""Tis a heaven below, the Redeemer to know."

And with Jacob," God is here! this is the gate of heaven!" No dread but that of God: no fear but the fear of the Lord; no desire but to do and suffer the will of God, to whom we could look up, and with inexpressible delight, cry, Abba, Father.

About the tenth or twelfth of April, signs of a departure were very manifest, and I inquired of her if her mind was the same as formerly? and received a satisfactory answer.

April 15th, as I sat watching the slow, deadly approach of the maturity and victory of the disease, and the sweet heaven in the countenance of my love, she broke silence, and gave directions concerning her funeral.

Nature now appeared to have given up the strug gle, and had yielded almost passively to the disease. Her cough ceased, mostly, raised but little, and inclined to sleep; but such was her weak state, that eight or ten minutes was as long, in general, as we dare let her sleep at once. By her request, her father's family were called in for family worship. On the 17th of April, in the morning, one of the affectionate near neighbors came in, bringing a plate of food ready cooked, of that kind, which of late had relished best, and sat the easiest on her weak stomach. She thanked her benefactor, but lifting her hand said, "It looks good, but I cannot take it”

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-my heart felt the sentence ! Death sat waiting, as on the banks of Jordan, for the water to divide and give a passport through. All the nourishment of the last twenty-four hours, was a few table spoons full of gruel and cordial, of which we wet her lips and mouth.-Such was her calm composure, that I said, as I awoke her, your sleep appears quiet"Yes, almost natural," was the reply" and I feel almost well, only a load in my breast like a stone.” About sunset, sister O. Wing of the society called Friends, came, and as I met her at the door she said, I have come by the Spirit to Fanny, believing that if I did not come to-day I should not see her alive-something said in my heart, You have come to help lay her out.

The good Lord so far supported her, that she appeared to converse in a low tone easier than she had for days-her countenance was cheerful and most pleasant, as if waiting for some most desirable object. About eight o'clock, after having conversed with some freedom with us, she requested the family to be called for social worship. It fell on my

mind--it is the last we shall enjoy together on earth -and so it was! I read a short portion of the word of God, and my mind was fixed on the Israelites passing Jordan. They were not afraid, the water stood as an heap-but the footsteps of the priests were to be seen, and the ARK of the covenant was in the midst of the channel of the river, and there could be no dread of danger. My prayer was, O Lord, let thine handmaid see thy face, and hear thy voice, and she will not be afraid! O be thou with us, and all is well. To the glory of God I would say-It was so ! All was well! Heaven closed us round-the shades of death fell back

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