pray, it vanished. I could not even mourn over my coldness.

“ March 3. In the evening, partly by my own fault, and partly by accident, got entangled in vain company. Afterwards was in most exquisite distress of mind. Had a clearer view of my own sinfulness and vileness than ever.

"March 4. I seem rather to go back than to advance. What a display of divine power, to make a saint of such a wretch as I!

"March 6. My time flies like a vapor, and nothing is done. When shall I begin to live for God!

"March 8. I cannot accuse myself of indulging in any known sin, or neglecting any known duty; but I am so lifeless, so little engaged in religious things, that I seem to believe as though I believed not.

"March 10. Found considerable freedom in prayer. Was too passionate in a dispute about a theatre. Had little freedom in speaking to the scholars. Was enabled to be diligent in filling up my time. Was assisted in my studies.

"March 12. I act as if eternal things were a dream. When shall I be wise!

"March 13. Favored with great liberty in prayer. Was enabled to pray for others more than usual.

"March 17. Thanks to divine goodness, this has been a good day to me. Was favored with considerable freedom in the morning, and rejoiced in the Lord through the day; but in the evening felt an unusual degree of assistance both in prayer and study. SINCE I BEGAN TO BEG GOD'S BLESSING ON MY STUDIES, I HAVE DONE MORE IN ONE WEEK THAN IN THE WHOLE YEAR BE

FORE. Surely, it is good to draw near to God at all

"March 19. Less freedom in prayer than usual. In the evening, was betrayed into folly, if not into sin. Could neither write nor read with any profit. What a miserable creature am I when Jesus withdraws his assistance! Was very positive in a trifle, and was justly punished by finding myself in the wrong. Hope it will prove a profitable lesson to me.

"March 23. Am much exercised respecting applying for license to preach, and afraid I am under the influence of improper motives; but I trust my Guide will direct me.

"March 28. Read Pike's Saving Faith; and, though at first I was somewhat alarmed with fears that I had it not, yet, blessed be God, my fears and doubts were soon removed. I was enabled to appeal to God for a witness of what he has done for me. I know that I love my Savior; and, though my love is infinitely short of his merits, I trust He who gave it me can and will increase it. I am sinful, but He died for sinners. Felt unusual fervency and sweetness in prayer and reading the Scriptures, and was encouraged to go on, striving for more holiness.

"March 29. Renewed my covenant with God. Asked assistance to do it with sincerity. My prayer was answered in an unusual degree. I had a clearer view of my own vileness and depravity, and a more distinct and satisfying perception of Christ's all-sufficiency and goodness, by far, than I ever enjoyed before; so that I was ready to think I had never known any thing of the matter. Was enabled to say, Abba, Father! in the true spirit of adoption, and to exercise strong faith in Christ, and love to him.

"March 30. Had more comfort in ordinances than

ver before. I was almost ready to think this the period of my conversion. The transport I felt was more rational and penetrating than I ever before experienced. It arose from an apprehension of the perfect sufficiency of Christ in all his offices, and from a clear discovery of God as my Father, so that I was enabled to trust, rejoice, and exult in him.

"April 2. Was enabled in some measure to guard against a peevish, impatient disposition. In the evening, unusually lively and fervent in prayer.

April 5. Was very much harassed with wander ing thoughts this morning. Sought to Christ for deliverance, and found it. .....Have fresh reason to think visiting is detrimental. In the evening was exceedingly depressed with a sense of my vileness. I wished to shrink from society and observation. Could hardly think of attempting to preach. Threw myself at the feet of my blessed Savior, and poured forth my sorrows and complaints before him. Yet I suspect there was more of self than any other principle in my tears.

"April 8. Was much exercised to-day, on the subject of election, and other truths connected with it. Have been much in doubt respecting offering myself for examination next month. Fear I am not under the influence of proper motives.

"April 13. Sabbath. Felt the love of God sweetly shed abroad in my heart. Continued in this frame all the morning. Derived much more advantage from ordinances than usual, especially from the sacrament. A profitable day.

April 20. Had some sense of my miserable state, but little fervency in seeking relief. Suspect the weather and my health have some influence on me. In the

evening had more fervency, but not more sensible assistance. Was, however, resigned to my Master's will, and enabled to trust in him.

April 26. Was much favored in my approaches to the throne of grace to-day.

May 1. Rose early, and had some life and comfort. Have been so much engaged in preparing my sermon for examination, that my mind has been much taken off from religion. I find writing sermons is not praying.

May 4. It is now long since I have enjoyed any of those sweet seasons of communion with God which used to be my chief happiness. I fear I have neglected the Scriptures too much. Am determined to pay more attention to them.

"May 13. This was the day in which I intended to be examined before the Association, but it pleased Providence to prevent. In the evening reflected on my late coldness and backwardness in religion, and resolved by the help of divine grace, to run with more alacrity the race set before me.

May 18. I think I never was so favored in prayer for so long a period in my life. At meeting, tolerably lively. In the intermission, and after meeting, was enabled to spend the time profitably, so that I never was favored with a more profitable Sabbath.

"C May 19. Enjoyed considerable fervor in the morning, and some life in speaking to my scholars. Engaged in a dispute at breakfast, and foolishly became angry. Retired and prayed for him with whom I was angry, and for myself. Was enabled, in a considerable degree, to conquer my anger in this matter.

"May 20. Find some remains of anger, notwith standing all my endeavors to suppress it.

May 22. Since I began, in pursuance of my design, to read the Scriptures, I have enjoyed more of the divine presence than before.

"May 23. Was favored in prayer. Was applied to by the selectmen to deliver an oration on the 4th of July. Refused at first; but, being persuaded to consider of it, pride and vanity prevailed, and I foolishly complied.-Mem. Never to consider, when I have a presentiment, at first, what I ought to do.

Sabbath, June 1. Communion. Enjoyed much of the divine presence and assistance in prayer and meditation. Have never had a more profitable morning Found my Savior in his ordinances. Hope I have found this a good day. Seemed to feel more property in Christ and his benefits than I had ever done before. After meeting was filled with the blessed consolations of the Spirit. O, how refreshing are those foretastes of heaven! How ravishing the presence of Jesus! Felt a full assurance of my interest in the blessings pur chased by Christ. No doubts obscured the sunshine of my mind. God be praised.

"June 9. Resolved to spend all the time before six in religious exercises. Enjoyed some comfort in prayer.

"June 15. Sabbath. Never felt such strong and lively faith in prayer as this morning. It seemed as if I had nothing to do but to take whatever I pleased.

"June 17. Was much harassed with wandering thoughts in morning prayer. Was much assisted in my studies.

"June 28. Felt myself exceedingly vile. Found no comfort in the exercises of public worship. My oration is a snare to me. O, what an astonishing, bewitching