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the Lord's time, which I am waiting for." He said he had laboured to do whatever was required, accordingly to the ability received, in the remembrance of which he had peace; and though the disorder was strong at times, and would like a whirlwind come over his mind yet it had hitherto been kept steady, and centred in everlasting love; adding, and if that be mercifully continued, I ask nor desire no more. Another time he said, he had long had a view of visiting this nation, and, sometime before he came, had a dream, in which he saw himself in the northern parts of it, and that the spring of the gospel was opened in him much as in the beginning of Friends, such as George Fox and William Dewsbury, and he saw the different states of the people, as clear as he had ever seen flowers in a garden, but in his going along he was suddenly stopt, though he could not see for what end; but, looking towards home, fell into a flood of tears which waked him.

At another time he said, "My draught seemed strongest towards the North, and I mentioned in my own monthly meeting, that attending the quarterly meeting at York, and being there looked like home to me."

Fifth day night, having repeatedly consented to take medicine with a view to settle his stomach, but without effect; the friend then waiting on him said, through distress, "What shall I do now?" He answered, with great composure, "Rejoice evermore, and in every thing give thanks;" but added a little after, "This is sometimes hard to come at."

Sixth-day morning he broke forth early in supplication on this wise: "O Lord, it was thy power that enabled me to forsake sin in my youth, and I have felt thy bruises for disobedience; but as I bowed under them thou healedst me, continuing as a father and a friend; I feel thy power now, and I beg that in the approaching trying moment, Thou wilt keep my heart steadfast unto thee." Upon his giving directions to a friend concerning some little things, she said, "I will take care, but hope thou wilt live to order them thyself," he replied, "My hope is in Christ, and though I may seem a little better, a change in the disorder may soon happen, and my little strength be dissolved, and if it so happen, I shall be gathered to my everlasting rest." On her saying she did not doubt that, but could not help mourning to see so many faithful servants removed at so low a time, he said, "All good cometh from the Lord, whose power is the same, and can work as He sees best." The same day he had given directions about wrapping his corpse; perceiving a friend to weep, he said, "I would rather thou wouldst guard against weeping for me, my sister; I sorrow not, though I have had some painful conflicts, but now they seem over and matters well settled, and I look at the face of my dear Redeemer, for sweet is his voice and his countenance is comely."

First-day, fourth of the tenth month, being very weak, and in general difficult to be understood, he uttered a few words in commemoration of the Lord's goodness: and added, "How

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tenderly have I been waited on in this time of affliction, in which I may say, in Job's words, Tedious days and wearisome nights are appointed unto me; and how many are spending their time and money in vanity and superfluities, while thousands and tens of thousands want the necessaries of life, who might be relieved by them; and their distresses, at such a time as this, in some degree softened by the administering suitable things."

Second-day morning, the apothecary, who appeared very anxious to assist him, being present, he queried about the probability of such a load of matter being thrown off his weak body, and the apothecary making some remarks implying he thought it might; he spoke with an audible voice on this wise, "My dependence is on the Lord Jesus, who I trust will forgive my sins, which is all I hope for, and if it be his will to raise up this body again, I am content; and if to die, I am resigned; and if thou canst not be easy without trying to assist nature, I submit." After which his throat was so much affected, that it was very difficult for him to speak so as to be understood, and he frequently wrote when he wanted any thing. About the second hour on the fourth day morning, he asked for a pen and ink, and at several times, with much difficulty, wrote thus: "I believe my being here is in the wisdom of Christ; I know not as to life or death."

About a quarter before six the same morning he seemed to fall into an easy sleep, which continued about half an hour, when seeming to

awake, he breathed a few times with more difficulty, and expired without sigh, groan, or struggle.

END OF THE JOURNAL.

FROM THE

WRITINGS OF JOHN WOOLMAN.

Considerations

On pure Wisdom, and Human Policy.

"The wisdom that is from above, is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, and easy to be intreated, full of mercy, and good fruits, without partiality, and without hypocrisy. -JAMES. iii. 17.

To have our trust settled in the Lord, and not to seek after, nor desire outward treasures, any further than his Holy Spirit leads us therein, is a happy state, as saith the prophet, "Blessed is the man that trusteth in the Lord, and whose hope the Lord is."

Pure wisdom leads people into lowliness of mind, in which they learn resignation to the divine will, and contentment in suffering for his cause, when they cannot keep a clear conscience without suffering.

In this pure wisdom the mind is attentive to the root, and original spring of motions and desires; and as we know "the Lord to be our refuge," and find no safety, but in humbly walking before Him; we feel a holy engagement that every desire that leads therefrom may be brought to judgment.

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